Skydiving in Elsinore
Oct. 6th, 2007 09:47 pm“But what is your affair in
We’ll teach you to drink deep ere you depart”
(Hamlet to Horatio: Act 1, Scene 2, Line 174)
“Move up to the cargo door”,
We were harnessed tightly together, front to back, with his helmet up close to my left ear.
“Just lift up, and I’ll push you forward”, he shouted.
The twenty-three tandem jumpers and skydivers on the cargo bench were also bumping and pushing themselves toward the open door. We were at 12,000 feet, and for the first time, I felt the cold air penetrate my clothes, and chill my body. The air rushing through the cargo hold was the only sound I heard as we inched closer to the door. The line of people in front of me was getting smaller. The skydivers on the opposite bench seemed to be moving faster than I was. There must have been some order in the way we were exiting the plane, but I couldn’t figure it out. I was concentrating on moving forward quickly. I did not want to be late to the hatch, delay our jump, and have to do it again, alone. As I got closer and closer to the doorway, all I could think was “Where are the people in front of me?” Suddenly, Matt, the skydiving cameraman and videographer, rose from the bench across from me, grabbed hold of the jump bar above the hatch, and gave us a thumbs up sign.
“Remember to smile” he shouted over the deafening wind, and then rolled out the hatch.
“Move to the door, now”, commanded
I obeyed; I didn’t have time to hesitate or think. Thank God, none of the questions I had considered and tried to suppress as we ascended in the twin propeller plane came up at that moment: “How will the other jumpers do it? Will they freeze or panic? Can I avoid looking down from the hatch? Will I remember the instructions? Can I really just jump into air?”
“Get into position”, my tandem instructor shouted, as he pressed up against me.
I stood up, took hold of the chest straps, and knelt on my right knee in front of the empty space. Before I had time to think, look down, or hesitate, I heard, “One, two, now!” I brought my head back, leaned forward, and we were suddenly out of the cargo hatch, and falling away from the plane.
Falling, tumbling, floating or flying? I honestly don’t know what sensation I felt when I went through that hatchway into the thin air of 12 thousand feet. The only thoughts going through my mind were “Don’t mess up. Make a good arch, and keep my legs back”.
Suddenly, I felt three hard blows on my left shoulder. That was the signal to release my chest straps and hold up my arms, even with my body. I had rehearsed this position many times during the orientation drills. It looks like a Superman-in-flight position, without fully extending ones arms. We were now far away from the plane, and in a stabilized freefall. In fact, we were flying at 120 miles an hour, swiftly descending from 12 thousand feet in the sky. Before I could assess my situation, Matt’s jump-suited body came out of nowhere and was floating in front of us. Two cameras (a digital and video camera) were mounted on his helmet, and he was gesturing at me to smile and wave. Those had been his clear instructions when he filmed the first sequences at the staging area, near the flight deck: “Keep your head up and smile. Don’t look down. Your friends and family do not want to see the top of your helmet”. I never took my eyes off of him and the camera (Boy, can I follow instructions!). I smiled, and mugged for the cameras, waving, and giving victory and thumbs up signs with my fingers. I never looked down, and I had no sensation of falling, flying, or movement. The only indication I had of speed and motion was the swift slapping of my left collar against my neck. The collars of my golf shirt had been tucked into my neck to avoid just this phenomenon. Somehow, my left collar had come undone, and it was flapping against my neck at 120 miles an hour. As irritating as the pain was, it served to keep me alert to what was going on, and to notice the incredible absence of speed or any sense of falling.
Abruptly,
I was six or seven years old when my fascination with parachuting first materialized. I think it was in 1953 when my uncle and two aunts, Charlie, Espy and Liza, took me to the Starland movie theatre in
The idea that I could actually parachute, or skydive, did not occur to me until 1982, when I was 36 years old, and the Dean of Students at
It was my counselor at
In the years that passed, I found it surprising how few people shared my excitement and interest in skydiving. Whenever I mentioned it to friends and family, they expressed indifference to the idea or concern for my mental capacity. The only people who took me seriously were Kathy and Prisa. Kathy recognized and accepted my sincere interest in this endeavor, even though she worried about it. Prisa was clearly opposed to my idea, but instead of fighting it, she provided practical advice and considerations, hoping that logical thinking would dissuade me from actually going through with my plans. Prisa suggested benchmarks in preparing for my leap of passion. If I was serious about skydiving, she pointed out; I should first try bungee jumping. She told me that
I finally contrived to go bungee jumping in May of 2002, when I promised that year’s graduating class that I would do it on Grad Night. Keeping my word became one of the big events of the evening, and numerous students gathered to watch. As time approached for my jump, I became more and more nervous about how I would react. In retrospect, I am glad that Ed, a Physical Education Teacher who was also there as a chaperone, agreed to join me. His tall, strong, and self-assured manner gave me confidence. We were strapped and cinched together, side to side, with interlocking arms, in a straight-jacket harness. Once tightly secured, we were hoisted from a towering crane, feet first, to a height of 100 feet and suspended momentarily in the air. “Oh my God” I gulped, staring facedown at the grass field below, and the spectators along the surrounding perimeter fence. I suppressed my rising panic, squeezed Ed’s arm to reassure myself that we were still connected, and held my breath. When the ride operator shouted, “Now!” on the public address system, I pulled the ripcord that held us. “Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh” Ed cried out, as we dropped head first. I emitted no sounds because my throat was locked in fear. At the exact moment I felt like bursting, when I thought we would hit the ground, WE TOOK OFF. Our vertical drop suddenly changed to a horizontal lift off, and we seemed to be flying. Swooping over the assembled spectators, and looking down, I felt like a bird. I stayed elated long after the swooping arches became smaller and smaller. It had been a great experience, and the momentary fear and panic had only heightened my awareness of the flying sensation. As they unhooked us, and we were brought to an upright position, I felt much more confident about tandem skydiving.
Floating in my parachute, I looked out at the panoramic sweep of the
“How are you doing?”
“Fine”, I replied, marveling that we could talk, and hear each other clearly.
Until this moment, our world had been one of wind, noise, and velocity. Now there was absolute stillness as we floated along, in upright positions.
“Let me swing over to the left and you can see the ocean”,
His voice was normal and conversational, and I could hear every word. He banked the parachute in a wide arc toward the west and I saw the pale blue of the
“It is so peaceful” I said in amazement.
“Yeah, today is perfect for skydiving”,
“This is the best part of the experience. When I’m alone, I’ll sometimes pull the cord at 12, 000 feet and spend the entire time gliding around in the sky”.
Even though it was now easy to speak, there was really nothing I wanted to say. I just looked out at the world below as we floated along.
“Would you like to steer?”
“Sure” I replied, not really wanting to.
He told me to look up at the stirrups that were hanging above us from the winged parachute.
He held one in each hand.
“Look, you can see the Big Bear fire over the mountains”,
“Cool”, I responded.
“Do you want to try some spins?”
“Sure”, I again replied.
This time, I should have said no. Watching from the ground, I had seen some of the earlier tandem skydivers trying this maneuver. It looked like their parachutes had been punctured, and they were spiraling to the ground, in tight, twirling, death spins. When
“That’s good”, I finally said, to stop this disorienting maneuver.
“How are we doing?”
“Fine”, I lied.
The horizon was back in balance, but my earlier euphoria had dissipated with the whirling turmoil in my stomach. The glamour of this event suddenly dimmed, and all I wanted to do was land without getting sick.
I’m not sure when I decided to use my 60th birthday as the final reason to go skydiving. The thought just came to me last year, and it made sense. Turning 60 years of age would put me on the threshold of a new phase in my life. The next few years would see my transition from work to retirement, from one way of life to another. It seemed fitting to use the occasion to try something special, something I’d always wanted to do. So, one day, I told Kathy that I wanted to do two things for my birthday: invite family and close friends to a party at our home, and go skydiving. She agreed to handle the party, but said that I’d have to take care of the skydiving alone. Making an appointment to skydive at
Greg and I were the first to arrive at the Quality Inn in
I’ve been scared many times in my life, without ever having risked imminent injury or death. I’m talking about the fear one feels when facing or doing something for the first time: the first day of high school, the first day of college, the first day of Air Force basic training, and my first day as a teacher. Some may call it nervousness, anxiety, or performance jitters, but it’s really fear. As the eldest child in a family of six, I experienced a lot of “firsts” in my life, and they never came easy. As a youngster, I would deny these feelings, and put on a brave face for my parents and siblings. As I grew older I came to the knowledge that I would always survive these events, and even enjoy some of them, but the process of initiation was painful. I still pretend that these occasions are tolerable, but without denying the level of fear they engender. At this stage of my life, I know when I’m afraid; and I’m able to gauge its degree of rationality. Some of my fears are patently irrational: every parent walking up to me in the morning is not hostile; and every teacher entering my office does not come with a complaint or a problem. Up until this moment, I had been able to joke, kid, and speak enthusiastically about skydiving to my wife, children, family, and friends. However, when I woke up on the Saturday morning of my airplane jump, a little hung over, I was scared, and the fear was not irrational. On that clear, crisp, and cold morning, I truly appreciated the calming companionship of John and Greg. John came by my room at
The Skydive Elsinore offices were bustling with energy, loud talk, and laughter when we walked up to the counter at
“You all skydiving today?” asked Cody, a bubbly, blonde young man, from behind the counter.
“He is” chimed in John and Greg in unison, as they both pointed at me.
“Anyone want to join him as a co-pilot?” Cody responded.
Greg went even paler behind his graying beard, as he shook his head and said “No thanks”. I think the prospect of flying in the frail-looking, twin propeller airplane we inspected the night before caused him to shudder, as he refused the offer. John, the veteran soldier, immediately said “Sure, why not!” How could he pass up an airplane ride in a Super Twin Otter, for only $14.00? Although Greg passed on the plane ride, he did volunteer to keep me company in a small adjoining briefing room, to view the liability videotape presentation. This was an incredibly candid monologue on the dangers of skydiving, which I had to hear before signing a legal document waiving my rights to sue. The waiver released Skydive Elsinore from all legal and financial liabilities in case of my injury or death. There was not much laughter or levity in that confined room. We are sometimes aware of the reassuring influence that old friends have on us in moments of high stress or anguish. One or more of my friends have always managed to be present at some of the most painful moments of my life - the funerals of my father and mother-in-law, Mary. This was one moment when I was both aware and thankful that Greg and John were around to keep me company. They helped me bear the next two and a half hours, which were an endless period of growing nervousness and tedium, interrupted by three spikes of activity and excitement: the landing of the first group of tandem skydivers, the training orientation, and meeting my videographer and tandem partner.
John’s wife, Kathy, alerted me to the landing of the first wave of skydivers. From the minute the airplane left the tarmac loaded with 23 skydivers, she had been on her feet, tracking its flight. Kathy provided a continuous report of its ascending journey, and then shrieked with delight when she spotted the parachutes popping open. Her joyful exclamations culminated as the winged canopies glided overhead, and the tandem teams slid to a landing on the soft grass, with their legs up, in a sitting position. Her enthusiasm helped to reawaken my desire to skydive, and I now had a clear picture of how my landing would occur.
The long, nervous incubation period finally came to an end when a tandem instructor gathered up the 5 member jumping party that would go up next. This group consisted of me, twin sisters, and a young married couple. The training was unnervingly brief. It consisted of five verbal instructions which we never thoroughly practiced: 1) when it’s time to jump, take hold of your chest straps and put your right knee down in front of the cargo bay; 2) when leaving the plane, arch your body, keeping your head and legs back; 3) three hard blows on the left shoulder is the signal to release the chest straps, extend the arms into a flying position, keeping your head up and smiling for the camera; 4) the instructor grabbing your left wrist is the signal to end freefall, and prompts you to reach back with the right hand, find the golf ball sized ripcord on the hip of the instructor, and pull hard; and 5) when approaching the ground, bring your legs up, keeping them straight out in front of you, and land on your butt.
Before I could really internalize these actions, Matt, my videographer, and
“Okay, show me what you do when we come in for a landing”,
“That’s perfect”,
I took a deep breath of relief. The ground was getting closer and closer, and things were moving faster now. Except for my nagging upset stomach, this had been a fantastic ride that was coming to an end. We swung around the skydiving facilities, and then lined up to swoop in over the trees, aiming for the green landing patch. From the ground, you can hear the rustling approach of the parachutes as they sweep over the trees, however, from the air, the approach is silent.
“Okay, legs up” commanded
I grabbed hold of my chest straps and brought my legs up, as we passed the trees, and landed on the grass, finally sliding to a stop.
“Whoa”, I breathed.
We were down, and it was done. I was a little shaky and disoriented as
The full impact of the experience did not dawn on me until an hour later. Before that moment, I was still feeling the ill effects of the spinning parachute, and hadn’t expressed myself. In that state, I had called Kathy and Prisa to tell them I was fine. I had reviewed the DVD and digital pictures of the tandem jump with Greg, John, and Kathy back at the hotel. I had also seconded Greg’s idea of further celebration and agreed to go to the Pechanga Resort Casino in Temecula for a drink. It wasn’t until I sat in the lounge chair in the Casino, with a huge, violet-hued cylinder rising from the center of the bar, that it finally hit me. I raised my tall Bloody Mary glass and said, “May I have your attention, please”. When Kathy, John, and Greg raised their glasses, I finally exclaimed what I felt, “Woowhoo, I did it!”
Skydiver!
Date: 2009-01-19 08:05 am (UTC)TRH
Skydiving
Date: 2009-04-17 09:41 pm (UTC)"Can I really just jump into the air?" priceless!
"Boy, can I follow instructions!" made me laugh out loud!
"Six lifetime adventure goals" marvelous!
TRH